Beginning of a Fresh Start

The final part of the three day trek had arrived, yet I felt as though I could continue for a few more days. I was simply hooked on the high I felt being there around nature... far away from the stress and pressure of every day life. My phone was offline and there were no distractions, external noises but only the present moment to be captured in. It was beyond anything I could have imagined and it felt so empowering. The first part of the day`s trek I kept to myself reflecting on the new things discovered, feelings opened and thoughts provoked. It was the beginning of a fresh start...

Throughout the trek I continued to stop every now and then to embrace what was around me and appreciate the views, smells the erupting emotions within. The trail was not too intense and I took it slowly as most of it was downhill. After a few hours of trekking down hill my thighs and knees could feel the intense pressure...but there was no rush. My mind had somewhat slowed down and I focused on my breathing bringing on a form a meditation...perhaps walking meditation which I have recently learnt about. I felt cleansed and all the negative emotions, guilt, anger and disappointed within had become more subtle. This was my time to shine and I kept having to remind myself that I was in Thailand. It was partly surreal at times that after all these years of this deep yearning desire I was actually here, I just wanted to shout out to the heavens and earths "Carmen you did it!"

Just writing this experience down takes me back to those emotions and the tranquility takes over...

I realised that I wouldn't feel this awe each and every moment of every day but the fact I had experienced it and could go back to it strengthened me. It was the beginning of a fresh start... It was now or never; I had nothing holding me back and nothing to get back to...this venture of travelling south east Asia and discovering who I am was mine to keep. All I was in search for was to feel at peace daily and overpowering happiness on a regular basis.

The three days spent trekking opened a key of hope that I made the right decision...